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Originally Posted by newtus
It was hard for me in the beginning. I was under 100 pounds in high school and out there but i didnt talk much. Turns out a lot of guys were into me im just finding out.
I didnt date for 8 years while i was sick and getting well.
Now im engaged to my current boyfriend. We went to high school together. Never thought id be dating someone from high school. Luckily hes a very good looking guy, just my type, and accepts pretty much everything about me including my mental illness.
I got very lucky. Im sorry you hate when people say they wouldnt date those with mental illness, but i just cant anymore. I have good reason tho. I cannot hold up myself plus another person in a relationship. Its too much for me to do. If i cant take care of myself theres no way i could help someone else. In my last relationship i held him up and put myself on the back burner. Its very hard and regret it. I saw that in my last relationship. I even see it now when i got depressed. I could barely do anything. Fiance doesnt deal with mental illness.
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as far as i know I've only had like 2 guys and a girl who liked me during high school... one of the guys and the girl that liked me started dating with each other only to find out the guy was pushy with sex and was pretty much a ****. After high school I dated the other guy that liked me... I was quite honest with him about my family. He's said things like, "your family has to be the most craziest and scary family out of all the girls i've dated." He made comments about my mom's house and how dirty it was... it was also the time i had short hair and told me how his mom said that I looked like a boy with my "hair cut". We talked online for a bit and he kept mention the topic about sex and asked if I think if we'd have sex... I flat out told him no because I don't see myself with him anymore. we broke up... still friends but we don't talk as often anymore.
as far at having a boyfriend it's rare for our relationship to get into a deep connection with... my ex boyfriend of 6 years was the closest i've gotten with someone. He broke up with me after he was having a mental breakdown during an anime conventions. nothing wrong with our relationship it was just he felt he need a clean plate and start over with everything. Which idk how true that is but i'll take his word for it.
I guess i just get offended with someone who said that... I'm not the type that wants a parent/child relationship with someone because i'm too "ill" to handle a real relationship. I want a rock to stay on but i don't want them telling me what to do, how to do it. and make threats like ended our relationship if i don't do something they want me to like my ex did during our 6 year relationship. I like to think i'm more independent than that. Not everyone with mental illness is dependent and not everyone who isn't mentally ill is independent. I already feel ****** about myself last thing i need is a label to prevent others looking at me as a normal person.