Today week 8 started but it will be a broken week. (and im happy about it )

Today i called in sick because of the tick bite. my arm was swollen, red, itchy and hurting at touch a lot. i was a little worried so i went to the doc and he gave me antibiotics and a sick day. tomorrow will be a full working day while wed and thurs will be half days because of the meeting and T, and friday full working day again. so all in all, i'll work just a little over half the hours i normally work. this is good because i feel less and less prepared to go to work after weekends. im tired. my mind is tired. and working has become such a daily fight. im so tired of fighting.

i didnt sleep well tonight because of the arm and nightmares. then went to the doc, got the meds, and came back home at my parents'. i spent all day watching tv series. my brother came home half sick too but i spent with them only lunch. i dont like it much when we are all together and especially i dont like listening to my brother talking about himself. he always gets to make me feel inferior or tense in some ways.

i didnt take the cat to watch tv with me because even if i know its not his fault, i got the tick from him and i dont want to risk that again this soon.

i really dont want to go back to work tomorrow . but at least i'll have my privacy at night and i'll be able to print the letter for my exT and get prepared for wed's meeting.

i hope it wont be a heavy week, but i know it will be both because of work and because of T. im ashamed of giving my exT yet another letter but i cant help it. i'll try to explain it to him...