Hi Cool. It's good that you are aware that your desire to sleep forever means that you are deeply depressed. It's good that you are aware of that. I'm sorry that your coworkers didn't ask how you were. It sucks to feel like you weren't missed. I'm assuming that you are feeling better from the pneumonia. How are the other health issues? Did any of them get better when the pneumonia got better? When do you see your T next? Could you let T know that you are struggling right now? Keep writing here if you wish. I'm listening. HUGS to you my friend, Kit