Why do people have to make such a big deal out of them?

It's just another day of the year. But no everyone has to talk about going home and spending time with their family and having big meals full of laughter and joy.

Ok. maybe i don't hate holidays... but its just not fair. Everyone that I love is so far away from me. All the time they're far away.

I wish i could be with my Aunt. Her laughter fills the room and her love for you just radiates from her. Or with my cousin. Or even with my mom.. or dad.. or my brothers. I miss them too.

I won't even touch the fact that there are other people out there that i love and care about... but they don't remotely care at all. Not even enough to reply to a simple email after months of no contact. Not even enough to pretend like she cares... like she use to pretend so well.

But now I'm side-tracking.

I guess I'm just sick of being alone. I thought it was what I wanted... but I think i was just trying to protect myself. Too bad it only further isolated me