I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Fuzzybear! I agree with what all the other great, wise, wonderful posters have already wisely said better than I ever could! You've been given lots of great, wise, wonderful advice and support on this thread! I'd suggest to follow it as much as you can! Please remember that you'll ALWAYS belong here! We're all here to support each other after all! PLEASE REMEMBER THAT! We ALL care about you! We ALL love you here! Feel free to vent and write as much as you need to and want to! You KNOWE we'll NEVER judge you! I PROMISE YOU that I'll NEVER judge you no matter what! Please NEVER give up hope! Try to HANG ON as much as you possibly CAN! You'll ALWAYS be accepted here among ALL of us on PC! PLEASE REMEMBER THAT! I hope you'll be able to be accepted IRL as well, although I understand that it's not easy and that there are many mean, nasty people out there! I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this, Fuzzybear! Sending many gentle, positive, warm and wonderful hugs and many gentle, happy, positive, warm and wonderful thoughts to you