The vyvanse and energy drink gave me motivation today when the adderall doesn't. I finished raking the yard and cleaned up all the cigarette butts. Handed in my essay now I have to do an assignment, finish another essay and then I'm done my course. I'm going to go for a walk with my mom when she's finished work. I was listening to a really good podcast today that I continued on from last night since I stopped cuz I had a panic attack.

I realize that my panic attacks are from severe HPPD.

"Hallucinogen persisting perception disorder (HPPD) is a disorder in which a person has flashbacks of visual hallucinations or distortions experienced during a previous hallucinogenic drug experience, sometimes with the same feelings experienced before, which cause distress or impairment in work or everyday life."

In the psychedelic culture, lots of people usually have a few benzos on hand in case they need to stop a bad trip. I get flashbacks and benzos help to stop it. I always knew my panic attacks weren't normal panic attacks because I also feel psychotic on them and the doctor confirmed in the ER that the fluoxetine made me psychotic. I think it's because it works on serotonin like psychedelics do..

I feel motivated though for the first time in a while..