Not doing good at the moment. I was told my Grandma is dying of cancer and has 2 or 3 months to live. She doesn't want treatment. To top that off my cat who has FIV is not doing good. I might lose him soon. Too much stress. I also have been dealing with this pain in my stomach for a few days now. I have a feeling that the area that I had my hernia fixed is infected. There is still stitches there. I have been to the doctor. They put me on Keflex. It's an antibiotic to help kill infection. Just dealing with a lot at the moment. I do have a counseling appt coming up. I have a lot to discuss. I hope she is a good therapist. This is a new one. I haven't seen a counselor in over a year. Way too long. I am just listening to music and trying to stay calm. I thought about pulling my journal out and writing about the current situation. It has been a while since I wrote in it. Probably should. It has always been therapeutic for me to write out my feelings. I have been told I should call or go see my Grandma but I am very uncomfortable I don't know what to say. I know if I don't I will regret it for the rest of my life. This is throwing my anxiety into overdrive. The next few months are gonna suck. God help me.