Good news is I have been stable, Bipolar-wise, for two months now. That is a record for me for over ten years. Usually between severe episodes I still have significant symptoms. Never stable. I have tentative hope that my new meds are the cause of this and I will remain stable for some time.

On the other hand the PTSD is rearing its head. Last night I had a minor argument with my partner and ended up curled on the couch with a blanket over my head, terrified and unable to move. I felt so nauseous I almost threw up. This was after a day of being happy mixed with many moments of horrible memories flooding my mind, staring into space unable to snap out of it, being hyper-vigilant, and crying at the drop of a hat. There were reasons for this escalation in symptoms but I won't go into it. Thankfully I see my T tomorrow and can talk it out and hopefully calm down a bit.