Took 30mg CBD and 500mg l-theanine to not be dependent on benzo

I'm going skiing tomorrow!

Tbh I think I can't watch movies because I feel a little paranoid..

Edit: I'll try to write in detail what I'm paranoid about: The Gods. Dead people. Government spying on me. The pedo from the psych ward controlling my mind from the overdose grave where he belongs because he manipulated me. Anxiety about dying. The fact that I have magical powers but in reverse and I'm on a distiney course where what I'm doing will eventually make me famous. People in the clouds hacking me my mind with computers (A previous delusion that I can't shake). People spying on me. The fact that time is running out and I have to use signs from my environment and what people have said to me to use to my advantage.

OMG the cat keeps meowing it's doing that on purpose.