Been in the hospital, taking meds like a good girl, getting out of the house alittle everyday, going to all T appts, disability approved so financial situation is good. so why do I hate myself so much? why do I want to die every single day? I just want to get better and be as close to normal as a person like me can be. There is no need to respond to this post I am just trying something else to try to understand my illness.