So for the past week or so, I've been feeling pretty down. I don't really know why. There are some explanations, but they don't fully explain it. The big kicker was the fight on Saturday that I had with my sister...It wouldn't have been had I not have already felt so bad, but after that, I broke down. I haven't felt good since. It took a couple days to get over the fight, but now I am. Still though, I feel like crap. I feel stupid, and antisocial, and worthless, and yadda yadda yadda. I'm sure you guys know what I mean. Ugh. I just don't want to do anything. I'm being fake. I want to lie in bed all day, sleep, and possibly cry. I haven't felt this bad in ages. Here I was, thinking that I had improved and my depression was lessening, and now I've gone back to the way I was before I started therapy. That makes me feel even worse. I know that I need my T session this week, but I really don't want to go. It's not until Thursday, but I don't want to have to deal with it. I don't want to talk about this, I just want it to go away! Yeah, so anyway, this was basically just a pointless rant, so you can ignore it if you want.
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