Officially have PTSD again. It’s getting bad. Saw my T. He really helped me see what is going on. We talked through a lot of things past and present that made the picture clearer. I almost threw up at the end. He said that is the trauma and not to worry about throwing up. It’s no problem to him if I do it in his office . He was comforting me. He then assured me that we would work together to help me recover, and avoid another stressful hospitalisation. I left feeling strengthened but nauseous. This is going to take a while.