We got into it bad yesterday.

First it was him inviting his friend to stay the night without even asking me.

Then it started with me having a panic attack.

He was like “what do you want ME to do?”

I said just talk to me. He said “im in the middle of a mission on a video game”.

I said “forget it”. He never cares anymore if im ok or not. He just wants to do what he wants to do. If its bothering HIM its a problem. Meanwhile i jump when he says go. Every. Single. Time. With anything. Because i love him.

Its not like it used to be. Hes not the man i fell in love with anymore. He used to care. He even used to cry when i cried. Now hes emotionless. Never talks to me unless i beg him. If i ask him to talk to me he has every excuse in the book.

Its just not the same. He thinks hes showing me love by paying the bills. I understand. But i need more. I need time with him. I told him from the beginning, from month 1, i will require a lot of his time. He said “as long as im not working.”’I understood. Now i never get time. I have to beg.

Ive been crying too much in this relationship too often.