I'm very new to all this. I happened upon this site by chance. I'm looking for help - I'm broken.

I generally am very nervous about posting anything on the internet since it can always come back to bite. If any of my friends or co-workers read this, it would be devistating to my current life. Granted, I do live a very fake and shadowed life right now. So I guess being honest could be a good thing.

Is it possible to not remember most of your life, and then have it come back to you in nightmares? I've been lying for so long, I don't know what the truth is anymore. I'm trying to figure it out. I have 2 memories for every moment I remember in my younger years. One that is a "leave it to beaver" memory, and one that is more horror flick.
So which is real, and how can I tell the difference?