I've learned very few care anything about me - therefore I am confronted with the question, "why should i care about them?" I used to have several valid reasons for this question.. now .. all I can think is "I shouldn't - I hate them too" and it makes me feel bad - yet caring for them hurts too. I'm stuck.

I also feel as if my soul has died. Yet, if that has happened ... then there would be further consequences I do not believe have or could happen. Again - I am stuck.

I need help and yet I can find none. ... stuck ...

I do not know what to do.

I hope the end comes quickly.