-sigh- I don't really even no where to go anymore, or who to go to. I just get "don't get on the scale", "you need calories". That's all well and good unless you want to lose weight. I've basically been overweight for I'm not sure how long, but meds play a huge part in it. Whatever the reason I'm not healthy, I look awful. It literally makes me want to cry. Because I try so hard to lose it...And that's just not going the way it should. Because I cut out a lot of things you normally would, and just in general cut back a bit. Which works to an extent. But if I get on the scale and find I'm even more than half a pound up from the day before, my entire day is ruined. And that happens if I eat a normal amount of food, calories. The dreaded calories. This all makes it so frustrating, it's discouraging and I'm absolutely disgusted with myself I hate it. Honestly I can say it so simply but I don't feel like I can say it enough to make anyone understand. I am fat and I hate me. Hard work isn't enough. Work between exercising eating or rather not eating a lot. Part of the problem today is I thought I was doing so well and then jumped back up a pound and I have no idea how to handle it.