Waiting for more time to pass.
And can't sleep even a bit, more restless than usual.
Trying to rationalize with myself, in the back of my mind I think that I shouldn't stop it because society frowns upon it. And it's "if you're not with me, I'm against you attitude."
Society, you are crappy. You're not worth anything, stop downing others and making things harder for people, because you want power, and to be a god. Evil.