Hello Isolda van der Meer: I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to Psych Central.

We here on PC are not able to offer mental health diagnoses. Plus I'm not a mental health professional. So I can't speculate with regard to what the experiences you describe might suggest in the way of a mental health diagnosis. Perhaps other members may have some thoughts they'll wish to share.

One thing you might do, here on PC, would be to take some of the quizzes & tests that are on offer. Here's a link to the listing of quizzes & tests that are available:

Psychological Quizzes and Tests

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.