********trigger warning for talk of sh******

So t, I just cut for the first time in probably 3 years. I am spiraling. I am pissed about how my session ended yesterday. I am
Pissed that the pdoc today said I really didn’t want to die. I am pissed that to make an effort to reach out to other people, and create a support system with friends, I still don’t get any support. I really hate life right now. And I guess if I am being honest.. this whole trust thing that we talked about this week in connection with my previous doctor and his “mistakes” and whether or not you know is still really messing with me.