I stopped but started again due to overwhelming stress..

The reason I stopped was just that I did not need to do it anymore.. Life was stable.. And I found other ways of channeling stress. I just "dealt" with it. I don't know. I just didn't get the urges to do it. I kinda got over it.

Now, I'm doing it again because I can't seem to unload my burden any other way. It makes the pain physical, not mental, and it's better to have physical pain. Things that can't seem to get resolved get better when there's physical pain.

Don't know if that makes any sense of anyone.. But that's how it is for me.