I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Sò leigheas! You didn't disappoint or hurt ANYONE, my friend! Certainly not me and I hope you know that! Please don't be so hard on yourself! It's not your fault if you're going through all of this! Of course you'd feel better right way if you could just "snap out" of it like some peple may think, but of course we both know that's not possible. Please keep fighting, my friend. There's a good life ahead of you. There's at least a perfectly normal life that you can live just like everyone else does! There's nothing, I mean NOTHING that you're lacking that other people do have! You're just as IMPORTANT and you're just as WORTH IT as everyone else in this world is, ok, my friend? PLEASE REMEMBER THAT! It IS true! I PROMISE YOU THAT! YOU MATTER! Please keep writing here as much as you need to and want to. You know we ALWAYS appreciate hearing from you! We DO want to know how are you doing because WE CARE! Please don't EVER doubt that and let us know if there's anything, ANYTHING at all, that we can do to help you and support you! I promise you that we'll all try our best to help you in any way we can, even if you want us just to listen to what you have to say! Please NEVER give up hope, my friend! Try to HANG ON as much as you possibly CAN! You deserve it! You deserve to get better and to feel good! You deserve to live an happy, fulfilling life just like everyone else does! PLEASE REMEMBER THAT! We want you to get better and we're all rooting for you to WIN this battle! You're a WARRIOR and you WILL come out on top! I'm sure of that! I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this, Sò leigheas, my dear, sweet friend