I feel.. I must say sorry for my feelings... have lost my self confidence.. I guess..

it has hit me like a ton of bricks... that... the pain isn't going to go away... that I have fibrom.. and.. it isn't going away..

everytime.. I get upset... my glands swell... I am wracked with pain.. in my joints... and.. it isn't going away...

I am DID.. so I know so of the other alters understand.. but me.. I don't want this in life...

there is no escape... it hurts.. alot...