May I ask one thing that is not easy for me to understand reading your posts over time. You had so negative experiences with therapy and pretty much only bring up concerns and criticisms about therapy and Ts on this forum. Why do you see a therapist now? Especially given the concern in the OP... that you express so many negative feelings about this industry, many systemic ones, but you still attach to one of the providers. What benefit do you get from it, or expect to get from it, that might override all of your difficulties?

Without understanding it, I can only suggest not to go to therapy as "coping with it".