I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, TheLonelyChemist! I completely agree with what Crypts_Of_The_Mind has alreasy wisely said better than I ever could! I'd suggest you to listen to her as much as you can! She always gives such great, wise, wonderful advice to everyone like in this case! Yes, it is hard to break out of a cycle. You're definitely not alone in this and I'm sure many people on PC can relate to you and to what you wrote! Like Crypts_Of_The_Mind has already wisely said, if you keep fighting you've already WON! Just try to remember that you won't feel like this forever and that you'll feel better! Just keep reminding yourself that just because you think of yourself as an unworthy person it doesn't mean it's TRUE! I admire you very much and I'm sure many other people on PC do as well! Please do read what you wrote at the beginning of this thread... it came FROM YOU! I do believe it's absolutely true and I'm sure you believe it as well even if it's deep down and even if you're feeling discouraged at the moment! It WILL pass! Just keep fighting and keep trying your best! That's all we humans can do after all and it's ALWAYS more than enough! PLEASE REMEMBER THAT! Please keep believing in yourself because you're truly an AMAZING, WONDERFUL PERSON! Believe in yourself as much as we all believe in you! Your time WILL come if you just KEEP FIGHTING! Things CAN and WILL get better at some point! I PROMISE YOU THAT!You're a STRONG, WONDERFUL PERSON! PLEASE REMEMBER THAT! I'm so sorry you have to deal with all fo this, TheLonelyChemist!