It's a matter of most everyone - even those I have known for years but also ppl I just come into contact with - turning on me and treating me like I should go away or shut up or both .. no matter what the situation. I can't help someone (even if they ask for help), get help from someone (especially if I ask for help), start a conversation, join a conversation, do things without it being "wrong" in some way .. etc. It's like I am no longer a person. No longer matter. No longer importantant. Need to disappear. Etc .. that's why this depression is different from the depression I have experienced in the past.