I have joined dating apps again after a couple months hiatus. It's hard to find somebody on these apps who's actually serious enough to have a conversation that doesn't start with a **** pic, let alone somebody who's willing to go on a real date. I found one recently who I hit it off with. We spent a night together and we had a great time and have spoken everyday since. Being the jaded person I am, I didn't want to get my hopes up, but my feelings got the better of me and I became infatuated with him. Like a teenage girl, I would light up when I would get a text from him. We made plans the other night and he cancelled last minute saying he was "sick". I'm pretty self-aware, and I don't think I came off as clingy or anything like that, so I am confused as to why he doesn't want to see me. Nevertheless, excuses like this are usually a clue that it's not going to move forward from here.

This always happens to me. I go on dates with guys and as soon as they hit it, they quit it, and when I don't let them right away, their short attention span leads them to somebody easier and available, and they forget about me. The chronic disappointment that these situations bring me are making me feel very discouraged and undesirable. I keep thinking that maybe if I was a little funnier, more attractive, more intelligent, or had a better job, then they would see me as worthy of their affection, but as it is it's making me feel worthless.

Is anyone else out there having trouble finding love? Is there a better way to look for it or should I just abort this mission altogether?