March 19

<font color="blue">I am entitled to my own truth.

As a child I needed to distort my vision of truth in order to survive. When dad was passed out on the floor from drinking, I held up my mental kaleidoscope and saw that he was napping. How could I have believed otherwish>

Unfortunately the distortion that allowed me to survive in childhood is destroying my adulthood. When I view life through my childhood lens, I don't see people for who they are and I stay in abusive situations.

Today I will put away my old Kaleidoscope. I will view my relationships through the eyes of an adult and not the eyes of a frightened child. No longer will I lie to myself or anyone else. Living in fantasy is painful but gradually I am overcoming the obstacles that stand in the way of telling myself the truth. </font>