If I died - would I really be missed? I mean, no matter what the cause .. would my abscence matter - or would life simply be unchanged and everyone simply go about their way unscathed?

I don't wish pain upon anyone, that's not my point. My point is - I know when you lose someone you truly care for, no matter the reason .. the loss is felt. Loss doesn't have to be painful - some find ways to turn loss into growth or celebration .. but it always touches a person's life in some manner. So, I wonder .. would anyone feel that loss - would any part of life reflect the loss .. or am I completely inconsequential?

I wonder .. if others matter to me - why can't I matter to others?