My friend was probably right and you didn't really love me. I wouldn't know love really, I only ever felt it from dogs. I thought it felt that way but who knows. Not like you would ever have admitted it anyway if I had asked. Even if you did, you sure don't anymore. I'll always love you but that's different. You did some crazy special things in my life no one else ever could.... I didn't do that for you.

Not sure why any of this matters anymore. Sure doesn't to you. I wish my mind could screw off.