Why did I have to watch this television show? Why did it have to bring on such feelings of rage, terror, and bewilderment?
I'm supposed to resting and healing. I'm not supposed to realize this right now. Not without you in front of me. I wish I could see your eyes looking at me right now. That loving, knowing, and safe feeling that I get in those moments of holding space with you in the gaze. I need it right now more than I ever have.