Feel ok about my decision to not thaw the ham because that's one extra trudge through the metaphoric mud that I'm not quite ready to handle. The cooking, the cleaning, etc. And it's also not sitting there thawing risking total loss because I don't know yet the days this wake/funeral event is happening, but it would go to waste somehow, some way.

The stress of worry, though, that's now gone. The anxiety of the notifications in the family group chat, that's lifted as well.