I woke myself up this morning after a dream, where I became aroused.

Of course this led to self pleasuring. But it occurs to me regularly that the things that arouse me are far from normal.

Porn is something I have never watched. I get turned on by watching or thinking about men overpowering women. Have never fantasised or been turned on by real life rape or violence by a man towards a woman. Generally it has been in a mutually confrontational situation, e.g. a man overpowering female assailants. I get turned on by watching mixed arm wrestling videos where the man wins. And the dream this morning was my male friend who I have romantic feelings for (confusing I know as I often think I am a lesbian) beating me at an online quiz. So was not physical dominance, more intellectual.

What I would like to know is if anyone can relate to this? I have been this way since I was a kid. This is the only thing that has ever got me going. I can't get aroused (with a man) during sex, or particularly aroused by foreplay, and have never been with a woman, but have never had fantasies about women or being with them. In a way it's not helpful. Have tried being dominated by men in bed but it doesn't seem to work as well in real life or unless I am watching it in the third person.

Can anyone relate?