Thinking between two extremes of views, is something I've done since the past few years. I may have borderline personality disorder. Whatever, meh.

My psychiatrist tells me I can do everything I want - Wrong.
My mind, and that of everyone's else's in the world (might be a few exceptions there), including that of my psychiatrist's, tells me I cannot do anything I want - Wrong.

The truth is somewhere in the middle.

I have a hard time at school. I now enjoy the company of my classmates; nobody teases me, at least to the extent which is noticeable. I struggle in the practical aspect a lot though, in school.

So that means, I will never get into a reputed institute and neither get my PhD on the quantum theory. That's okay.

But that does not mean I cannot enjoy my life. I got a disability. I must not regret the things I cannot do. It's time for finding a middle ground.

There will be no Dr.Chem and no scientist who's so different from the rest of his peers. It's a fact of life. I cannot do anything to change it. It's beyond my power. Unfortunately, I will have to sacrifice my interest in the physical sciences and look for jobs I'd have considered 'mundane' after I complete my BSc.