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Originally Posted by Fuzzybear
It is not ok for me to use words. My words aren’t good enough. I’m not good enough. I should keep my pain to myself and not ever tell anyone how I feel. My thoughts and feelings have no value  I should always be punished for my mistakes and should punish myself every day, every minute ... until the end of Fuzzybear  It’s not ok for me to say that I wish the end of Fuzzybear would be soon. I’m too much of a coward to end Fuzzybear, too much of a coward to delete Fuzzybear. Maybe one day I’ll be braver. Then this world would be so much better without me.  I have no redeeming qualities. I have no gifts, no talents, I’m just empty blackness. a life time in prison in solitary confinement would not be as harsh a punishment as I deserve. I’m a mistake and I’ve always been a mistake
(I can’t take meds, I can’t have pets and I’m a horrible toxic worthless person who Should never speak. Ever |
You are so much more than all this.
I could go through your list and state exactly the opposite - which would be the truth. I won't though. Why? Because I know it feels like "I don't even know how I feel" - and you do know how you feel, in fact you are the only one who does.
I am sorry you feel this way. I wish I knew what or who was causing you to feel this way - because it makes me angry that such a sweet, caring, loving person as yourself would somehow have cause to feel this way. ❤ To me, you are wonderful .. your loving bear hugs meant a lot to me over the years.. and now the words you send are even more poignant. Fuzzy, there would be a gaping hole in this world without you. There are few people as kind and loving as you - which, is probably why you feel so hurt. Unfortunately it is the ones with the biggest hearts who get hurt the most .. until they too get hardened, or go away. You are a beautiful person, don't let this world change you or make you think otherwise. ❤
Love you my friend ❤