Hi Fuzzybear,
I am very sorry things did not work out with your therapist. It has happened to me too, so I get it. I have a therapist now, who has been helpful, and I like a lot, but it has been very challenging at times.

I am hesitant to write this , but I will, in the hope that it might be helpful. I am a student of astrology. Today the Sun is conjuncting the planet Uranus. That means unexpected things are happening to the collective ( a lot of people) presently. I don’t want to impose any beliefs on you, but it might be something to think about. Maybe no matter what, this was not going to work out, at this time.

I am sorry about your loss. Take good care of yourself Fuzzybear.