I gave her no pleasure...
Her inability to be anything like close was MY fault..
Her lack of interest in me was MY fault..
Being deprived of basic necessities was my fault
Being thrown out before I could fly was MY fault
I’m a worthless human being..
All the sexual, physical, verbal abuse was my fault..
All the gaslighting.. my fault...
I’m a disposable piece of garbage..
But even rubbish has more value than I do
I’m a toy for abusers to play with and then violate and discard