Yeah it does seem to fluctuate but I normally get triggered by something like I’ll see a diagram of female anatomy or something and I’ll feel like “That’s in me and I don’t like it”. I thought maybe my asexuality had something to do with it cause I feel like those parts aren’t good for anything if I’m not interested in sex or pregnancy. It more seems to fluctuate between me wanting to be nothing to sort of being nonchalant and uncaring about being female.