I'm with her, but not in love with her. She loves me, but I don't love me. At this point in time, I don't even like me. I've become miserable. I used to be ok with me, but I've been back to looking for a way out for months. I tell my therapist this, and he says something akin to "see you in a few weeks." I haven't anyone I can tell this to outside of these forums. I feel bad because it will REALLY be hurtful when I do break it off. My kids will hold it against me. I know I need to break it off, desperately, or do something desperate. This was supposed to be two people physically using each other whom they thought were safe, but she's far too attached and I'm farthest from it. I just don't like being alone or not having sex. How can I end this?
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