Thank you for the reply Sarahsweets!!!

Yes, she has a psychiatrist and she is on Lamictal for her bipolarism. You're right as I'm quickly learning, that she is dealing with this mostly on her own in her head. I told her I would be her rock she can tie too when the seas get rough and stormy. Right now, I'm learning how to be that rock. She appreciates me a lot for accepting her and loving her for all her flaws. I've actually been helping her keep on top of taking her meds and left a couple of each at my house in case she forgets them. I even drove 15 mins one way to her parents, 30 mins the other way to bring her her medicine that she left so she wouldn't be as late. I'm trying my best for her, like I promised.

I know it seems like we may not be the one for each other, especially on the account by the way I spoke about her on this forum. I'm in a sort of state of emergency trying to do what's best right now for her so I talked negatively. Its not always like this though, some days are absolutely wonderful. I have to disagree with you though, I fully believe we are well compatible because she fulfills me with much happiness and I have pride that I support her. She reminds me frequently on her good days with words of assurances, with her touch and loving nature, that she absolutely adores me and appreciates having me in her life. Just the shear circumstances how we are together and how hard we fell for each, we believe God put us here and is testing us constantly to see if we can manage. However, this episode hit where she's probably very depressed and feeling alone right now. I want to learn, take notes, make plans for future episodes, make reminders that everything is going to be okay. And then on her good days, I want to try my best to keep it from happening as often even though it is inevitable and be prepared for it. I always try to give her something to look forward such as adventures and gifts, I try to speak optimistically to her as much as I can while also giving her compliments every single day.

Together, we realized we made a terrible decision to do the excastcy. But we have finally started to bounce back and be like we once were. She's made an effort to cut out the bad people in her life she associated with partying and had bad juju, we no longer smoke marijuana anymore, and we've really started to cut back on excessive drinking. Also we cook healthy meals much more than the occasional taco bell drive thru.

Her interest is back and forth right now. Easter, just two days ago, she gave me so much affection. But now she is supposedly having family issues that she doesn't want me involved in. She wants to be left alone right now and I respect that. She told me this a short time ago and also stated that she loved me and has a lot of respect for me. Is there more advice you could give during these times and when more episodes hit in the future so I can be ready?

Thank you again so much for the reply,

-Alex