Last fall, I was put on Adderall XR after indicating that I was put on ritalin as a child, and that I was unsure and upset about my job and my situation in life in general. I have a real problem with drugs that alter moods, and I'm worrying that Adderall is altering my mood; not just focusing my attention. But sometimes I realize that I haven't taken it, and I feel like I have (if that makes sense), however yesterday I realized I hadn't taken it, and I sort of felt like I used to -- restless but unsure what I should do. So, I suppose I'm wondering if I should go off medication; if this is just how I am and I can work through it; or if my restlessness should really be cause to change something in my life. I also don't really feel fulfilled by my job, however I do have a great amount of freedom in it, and it is entirely within my field (a field which I pursue in my freetime with great joy and dedication).

Oh also, I feel very self-conscious about taking Adderall, and I would appreciate any advice on that, and on telling people I get close with about my use.