It doesn’t matter..
I don’t matter
It’s my fault ....
It always was
They can’t mend a screwed up stupid ***** like me
I don’t even deserve a “hug”
I pollute everywhere I go

Thank you all for replying. I only got what I deserve... rejection and being blamed for my problems by an expert. They are “right” to help others since I’m not deserving. It’s ethical to give help to those who deserve it, I don’t and I deserve no explanation aside from being blamed by them