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Loial · Apr 23, 2019, 03:46 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

Possible trigger:

I'm being completely serious but my motivation isn't. I've had a low grade eating disorder for years but never went through with it. I was anorexic because of stimulants and felt good. I don't care if I die. I'm not going to live long because of my heart. I will do anything self destructive like jump off a cliff. I have no fear. I'm a burden to my family and society I should just die. The way that it happens doesn't matter to me. My family needs to put their feelings aside and find a way for me to do it properly

But whatever.. I suppose I'll live anyways and be a burden which is painful at the least. Living might be the most selfish thing I can do.

As an aside I took a boat load of stimulants too in my time and I worry about my heart but all has been fine thus far. I think the human body is remarkably resilient in many ways... don’t count yourself out. I know health anxiety would tell yourself otherwise but don’t assume...