As I said in another thread here, I have gone years without having issues with anxiety. I am finding out a physical "sympyom" of a yet unknown (need more testing) cause can cause anxiety and depression (went a couple years without experiencing bad episodes of this as well). Now however, I am experiencing anxiety and depression, the likes of which never before have I experienced.

Today, I was simply responding to a post on here (that in no way triggered me) - and all the sudden .. I had the "fight or flight" feeling and needed to get out right away. I could hardly breathe. My heart was racing. I was extremely impatient to the point of anger bc I asked my husband if we could go walking and he said "go ahead" .. since part of my physical prob includes passing out I didn't want to go alone. So I said "can WE go walking" again he says "go ahead" .. I just stared at him with anger building .. then he says "where at?" I said "I don't care." He said "what do you mean?" I said - "I don't care" He said "what do you mean?" .. Now I was about to boil over. I said "I ... don't... care!" So he started getting ready .. I said "as long as it isn't too far bc I can't sit still". He went to get ready and came back. By this time, I was having to do controlled breathing. When we got in the car and down the road a bit, my heart stopped racing n my breathing began to return to normal. When we got outside .. within a few seconds, I was ok.

Anyone else ever experience this severe of an attack just out of the blue like this? (I tried pacing before asking to walk - but that just made it worse). If so, is there any way to prevent it from escalating to that intensity that quickly? Honestly, my anxiety attacks in past had trigger and I was able to refocus my thinking to calm myself. This is a new type of anxiety. Just like my depression is a new type.

I need a counselor so bad - yet finding one is proving to be impossible it seems.