Death of an idol
I agree, Little Turtle. Death can be such a cruel thing. I have a friend who looks like Eddie Redmayne, who stars as Stephen Hawking, in Dr.Hawking's biopic, The Theory of Everything. I sorta have feelings for him (forbidden, since I am a boy also) and I cannot stand the fact that time will eventually erase our relationship and we'll both grow old and die.
But hey... life was never supposed to be perfect. You would not want to suffer forever by living forever.
I miss my childhood as I will miss my youth in my 40's. That's why it's said you only get one shot. Me and him, will never be. I know. But I don't lose my sleep over it anymore. You can't change the Universe's laws, little turtle.