Today work was really heavy on me, not sure why but i felt i was going to explode. im so glad im having 4 days off now.

i saw my T this afternoon and we talked a bit about last week's meeting, having P next to me again and the dinner with my parents. we also talked about what im going to tell to my pdoc on friday (we opted for a half truth). i didnt have much to say. we also talked a bit about the improvements i have achieved during these years but none of this touched me.

at the end of the session i gave her a thank you letter. maybe i also should have said i dont deserve her, her time and her energies, but i will tell her if it comes up next week. i wish i had received a text from her but oh well, i'll see her next friday.

i'll dedicate the next days to a relaxing binge watching...