He's on vacation. He offered me an appointment to see him before he left, but when he originally told me the date, I had forgotten I had requested that day off from work for the hell of it weeks before and told him I had to work and would not get back in time before he left that afternoon. I did realize the mistake before he actually left, but realized it might seem really strange if I said I was working and then all of the sudden "oops, no work!" I was worried he would think I took the day off on short notice just to see him and he would end up thinking I'm too obsessed with him. So I accepted the loss to avoid the awkwardness.

ugh.

I really wish I saw him. These days are dragging.