I understand what you mean, ~Christina, and I'm so sorry that you're going through all of this! I completely agree with what all the other wise, wonderful posters have already wisely said better than I ever could! Please DO try to back off and scale your Meds before quitting them altogether! Quitting meds altogether can be VERY dangerous for your own health! Just be careful, ok? I'm sure you will be! I'm glad you have your husband taking care of you and watching over you! From what you wrote it seems like you alread know how to act and what to do! Good for you! Be proud of yourself for that! If there are ANY PROBLEMS AT ALL or ANY PROBLEMS ARISE I'd suggest to talk to your Pdoc about all of this and see how it goes from there! Hopefully he/she will be able to help you! You're a STRONG, WONDERFUL PERSON! I PROMISE YOU THAT! PLEASE REMEMBER THAT! WISH YOU GOOD LUCK! Let us know how it goes! Sending many hugs to you, ~Christina!