Paranoid delusions indicate paranoid delusions is how I look at it. "Good" in that context probably meant nothing more than, "at least that is one less of the host of symptoms that can occur." So it occurs? So could any number of others whenever there is enough stress on the system. Once you see them, then at least you've seen them. Symptoms i mean.

I hope you're able to get some olanzapine and that it helps you bail out when the plane is on fire next time.

Take it easy if you can while you feel better. If you go and run your self real hard when you are up, it creates a backlash on the down side. If you can stay cool thru the up cycle, you improve your chances in the down cycle. For myself, besides the olanzapine experience, this is the only "dramatic" difference anything has made. I know we're all different, but sometimes we try the same thing over and over. Maybe skip the carnival this time, and keep a quieter inside?

I throw these things out there, and I hope there is meaning in it, but I know how it is too. Keep on.