100+ days with no attacks. My heart works, and my conscience is clear of guilt. But still have trouble speaking at critical times, especially in front of groups or when discussing my mental health and needs. Extreme fears of physical and emotional attacks are a regular occurrence for me and all I can think to do is cope with high concentration of chocolate and puppy love. But my heart hurts and I feel I will never fully be accepted anywhere and do not see the point in trying anymore. I've removed as many stressors from my life as possible, but negativity forcefully floods in. I can only create so much of my own energy. I feel emotionally drained. Well, 100+ days with no attacks. Is that a good enough goal?