I'm so sorry you've been through all fo this, Tryingtobehappy5! I'm REALLY HAPPY that you're back and that you're feeling a little bit better right now! I completely agree with what all the other wise, wonderful posters have already wisely said better than I ever could! Fifteen minutes every three months is definitely NOT enough time to assit you and help you! I'd suggest to just talk to the Pdoc you like about ALL of this and see how it goes from there! Hopefully he will be able to help you! As for your meds they will probably take some time before you can start to see some benefits or effects! Just keep an eye on yourself and ask your husband for some help and to keep an eye on you if you feel like you may need it! If ANY problems start showing up or ANY side effects starto to prove to bee too troublesome for you DEFINITELY try to talk to your Pdoc about ALL of this and see how it goes from there! Contact him as soon as you can in that case! Most importantly, just stay away from alcohol as much as you possibly CAN and take GREAT care of yourself! Just focus on yourself at the moment, ok? Sending many hugs to you, Tryingtobehappy5!